KUPU KUPU BAJA!!!!

dia bercerita tentang hidupnya yang selalu terjajah.. 
dia sedih akan nasib kaumnya yang dianggap tak setara.. dan terpenjara, diperlakukan tak adil, dia tak bisa menerima karna dia berbeda.. berbeda…
aku tak akan lagi dianggap lemah, dan dianggap tidak berdaya..
aku tak ingin lagi hidup terkekang, dengan hanya sedikit pilihan, dengarkan aku berkata..
”aku bukan makhluk lemah yang harus dimanjakan, ku bukan makhluk lemah yang selalu diperdaya, makhluk lemah ini telah bermetamorfosa jadi kupu kupu baja…
aku tak akan lagi menjadi korban egoisnya kaum yang kuat..
aku tak akan mau hanya dianggap pendamping yang selalu menurut.. lihatlah aku berubah..
”aku bukan makhluk lemah yang harus dimanjakan, ku bukan makhluk lemah yang selalu diperdaya, makhluk lemah ini telah bermetamorfosa jadi kupu kupu baja…
selalu dianggap yang lebih kotor saat mereka berbuat lebih nista, selalu dianggap hanya pelengkap dan penghias romantisme mereka, selalu dianggap yang lebih lemah.. “kutak terimaaa..”
ku bukan makhluk lemah yang selalu memohon untuk dilindungi, dan tak bisa sendiri, makhluk lemah ini telah bermetamorfosa jadi KUPU KUPU BAJA!!!

SUDDENLY

                               Thrilling Experience.

           Around half an hour I walked into the shop behind my house to buy my favorite food, the food is tepo. usually the shop is always crowded with shoppers, maybe I'm lucky because his stall is empty, it did not take me long tepo the message has been wrapped. After I got home I immediately ate earlier. because the food was pretty much I felt full and then I felt the effects of a glut that resulted in me feeling sleepy. as usual I went on my steps toward the bed to lay my body and started to close my eyes on my hard mattress.

            About an hour later I awoke from a nap by the sound of Asr prayer, I still feel my eyes are so heavy and I tried to sleep but could not. I suddenly remembered to return the novel which I borrowed from the library. I immediately rose from my bed to the bathroom to wash my face, because at 5 libraries were closed so I push my bike to the library on time. there is nothing strange in the way I was feeling too casual, all goes as planned I arrived on time at the library and borrow a book that I have I return. one task is completed then the next goal is to bike shop to service the motor, I'm glad to service motorcycle repair shop because there are a lot of entertainment that was provided, among others, tv, free wi-fi, there is a free computer to use for visitors, for who want to drink coffee are also available and much more. an hour later my bike was finished in the service.

              I remembered my mother's orders to buy fruit. usually there are many roadside fruit sellers probably because it was the afternoon of the fruit sellers have gone home. I had to go back to the city center to buy fruit. after buying the fruit and then I go home. this time I thought it was weird to me, I felt my mind was somewhere else. I followed the truck in front of me about the truck traveling at 80 miles per hour as well as the bike is also traveling at 80 miles per hour. because all too often followed the vehicles in front of me I did not feel weird anymore, usually I can control the bike when the vehicle is in front of me stopped suddenly. but other times I feel this new winks and suddenly the truck in front of me was too close, I unconsciously put the brakes on my bike directly with the hardware. the rear wheels slipping and my motto when I was riding a motorcycle that has the opposite direction to the path home. I fell in with a bike trail and a helmet that I use a bump in the pavement I fell with her back to land first I felt like a turtle that was upside down and round and round. my feet had almost run over by a vehicle in the opposite direction and at the vehicle from the other direction is quite solid. 

Luckily I did not fall into the opposite direction I would most likely die of heavy trucks run over it if I fell the other way. my life was spared.
ALLAH do not want me to die, when I fell no vehicle behind me. I immediately got up and set up my bike lying in the middle of the road. I pushed my bike to the shoulder of the road and luckily I saw things no one lost luggage. there are many scars on my legs and back. because my bike was still able to run I get home to hold my heart is still beating like a drum loudly and being beaten with a poignant sense of small wounds in the leg.turns out the fruits that I bought was destroyed by falling body. luckily my parents did not scold me they just advised me. I should be more careful when riding a motorcycle.that afternoon made me quite traumatized.

8 mei 2012

" I'M NOT DEAD YET "

Tell me that you need me cause I love you so much!

Don't Go

I was raised in the valley

There was shadows and death

Got out alive but with scars 

I can't forget

This kid back at school

Subdued and shy

An orphan and a brother and Unseen by most eyes

I don't know what it was that Made a piece of him die

Took a boy to the forest

Slaughtered him with a scythe

Stamped on his face

An impression in the dirt

Do you think the silence 

Makes a good man convert?

We all have our horrors 

And our demons to fight

But how can I win when 

I'm paralyzed?

They crawl up on my bed,

Wrap their fingers round my throat

Is this what I get for 

The choices that I made?

God forgive me for all my sins

God forgive me for everything

God forgive me for all my sins

God forgive me

God forgive me

Don't go

I can't do this on my own

Don't go

No I can't do this on my own

Save me from the ones 

That haunt me in the night.

I can't live with myself 

So stay with me tonight

Don't go

Don't go

If I let you in

You'll just want out

If I tell you the truth

You'll vie for a lie

If I spill my guts,

It would make a mess 

we can't clean up.

If you follow me

You will only get lost

If you try to get closer

We'll only lose touch

But you already know too much

And you're not going anywhere

Tell me that you need me cause I love you so much

Tell me that you love me cause I need you so much

Tell me that you need me cause I love you so much

Say you'll never leave me cause I need you so much

Don't go

I can't do this on my own

Don't go

No I can't do this on my own

Save me from the ones 

That haunt me in the night.

I can't live with myself 

So stay with me tonight

Don't go

I can't do this on my own

Don't go

No I can't do this on my own

Save me from the ones 

That haunt me in the night.

I can't live with myself 

So stay with me tonight

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go!!!

MOTIF

"Pola pikir kamu masih saja pendek. Penyebab, motif, dan tujuan adalah suatu kesatuan yang integral! Kamu tidak bisa mengisolirnya satu per satu. Dengan menyusun latar belakang penyebab, kamu akan sampai pada kehampaan. Awal mula alasan dan motif adalah manusia itu sendiri, dan tak ada sesuatu pun yang memberinya hal tersebut. Memang benar kita tidak mungkin menemukan suatu tindakan tanpa suatu motif, tetapi hal ini bukan berarti bahwa motif tersebut akan mengantarkan kita pada suatu tindakan. Motif hanya suatu komponen yang tidak dapat dielakan dari tindakan. Motif, tindakan, dan tujuan adalah sama aslinya. tiap mereka muncul sebagai makna bagi yang lain." (Sabda dari persemayaman)

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